Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Whew!

OK, both kids are back in school, I've taken 2 yoga classes this week, and I just downloaded an Tabata MP3, which I will do later today, before my Pilates class.
The past couple of days have been a bit stressful.  It turns out that switching school districts in the middle of the year involves not only a ton of paperwork, but I have to plead with the school board to let my son stay in his current class for the last 3 months of school.
And there's still no guarantee that WG will be able to continue at HER school.  But if there's an issue there, we're hiring a lawyer, because she is THRIVING.
The biggest problem is that no one in either district is returning my phone calls and emails, and everyone is assuming I know what the proper procedure is for all of this.  How the hell would I know?!?!?!  Thank goodness for the (current) school secretary. When I drop LG off she's always willing to answer whatever questions I have.  I owe her big time!!!!!!
Of course, with all the mishugas, I've been doing some stress eating.  Including stuff like pizza, which not only doesn't get rid of the stressors, it gives me a stomach ache.
Oy vey.
But it's a process, right?
That's what I keep repeating to myself.
Plus, I'm hoping some Tabata drills will help me burn off some of this frustration!

On a completely different topic, "Doctor Who" is currently between seasons, and I'm filing the void with old episodes of "Law & Order" (the original).  And some new ones.  But mainly many of the episodes I missed in the 90's when I was either working at the theater company or in grad school.
Like many of my generation, I've had a crush on Sam Waterston for nearly 30 years.  I was lucky to see him onstage a couple of times when I lived in New York, and he's one of my favorite actors.   He Played "King Lear" a few months back, and I so wish I could have seen it!
Which has got my brain up and running (OK, more like mall-walking) again on the track its been on for the past few months. The subject I've been beating you all over the head with: teaching.  Specifically, teaching voice.  This morning I heard back from my friend at the previously-mentioned theater company, and I WILL be helping out the weekend he's teaching his workshop here.  I'm SO excited!!!!!!
More that that, I can feel change coming on.  In a good way.  That sense of a part of me waking up that I mentioned last time? It's getting stronger, and I'm feeling more optimistic than I have in a long time.
And, to tie it back to my body issues, I really believe that they're strongly tied to all of this.Getting away from other peoples' expectations and all the "shoulds" and doing things out of guilt, and finding what I'm meant to be doing. Aside from being my kids' mom, which, I believe, was fated.  :)


Finally, yesterday in yoga class it hit me that I was there as a student, not an instructor.  When the teacher gave me an adjustment, those old self-critical voices (yes, the Noisy Nattering Chipmunks) started up, but another voice came in and said "It's OK. You're not teaching this class.  It's OK to be the student once in a while."
And THAT shut the chipmunks right up, let me tell ya!
It was awfully nice.
I really like that voice.
I think I'll listen to it more often.

5 comments:

Geosomin said...

you sound so content :)
That is fantastic

Crabby McSlacker said...

Whew indeed!

And hey, f you get hungry after your Tabatas, stop by Cranky Fitness if you get the chance on the healthy snack giveaway winner post today (1/30).

azusmom said...

Yippee!!!!!! Thank you, Crabby! I'll be emailing you momentarily!

Crabby McSlacker said...

Never got your email! Don't know if spam caught it? Do you mind trying again? Thanks!!!

azusmom said...

Zoiks! I just sent another one. Hopefully it makes it! Thanks!