Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Ah!

When one  discovers that one's weight is creeping up, despite the fact that one is following one's Weight Watcher's plan to the letter and working out regularly, then one has to look elsewhere for the cause of said Weight Creep.
Perhaps there are other issues going on.

After weeks of watching every bite, working out like a maniac, and watching the scale go up, I finally remembered, on a cellular-rather-than-intellectual level, that stress, anxiety, and lack of sleep can lead to weight gain.

And that's the least of the issues.  Stress, anxiety, and lack of sleep are pretty big problems in and of themselves.

So I'm using my Fitbit for more than tracking my activity.  There's a 2-5 minute relaxation program on it that also guides breathing.  There are tons of EFT videos on YouTube.  And, since I can't always get to my yoga classes, I've downloaded a few, including some slower-moving flow sessions.  Because trying to kill myself with every workout is SO me-in-my-30's!  :)

Hubby is in the thick of rehearsal for his show.  He leaves for his day job at 7:30 AM, then afterwards drives to Walnut Creek to rehearse, and gets home at about 11 PM.  I, meanwhile, am drowning in paperwork: Enrolling WG in high school (!!!!!!!!!), for one. Hopefully she'll stay in her current school, but she has to enroll in the county district.  It's all very bureaucratic and requires over 100 pages of documentation, as well as, I kid you not, my mother-in-law.  She has to sign documents at the office in front of witnesses, confirming that Hubby, kids and I still live with her and my F-I-L.
I'm also re-applying for their Medi-Cal.

I've made so many copies in the past past two weeks that I'm starting to have nightmares about trees stalking me and trying to cut me down with an axe.

This morning, however, I took a break.  After everyone left, the pup and I went back upstairs for a quick nap and some "Doctor Who" on BBC America.

So now it's back to the grind.  Talk soon!





Sunday, March 5, 2017

Living in Interesting Times.

The above happens to be a title of an EFT video I've been using.  It's posted on YouTube, and is just under 7 minutes long.  It refers to the Chinese curse "May you live in interesting times".  Which, I think I can safely say, describes the current era.
I've also, in the evenings, been watching 90's videos on MTV Classic.  It reminds me of being in my 20's, and living either in Western Massachusetts (early 90's), La Jolla (mid), or L.A. (late).  Ah, those were the days!  When I was still made of potential and everything seemed possible, lol!
Of course, I'm looking back with some heavily rose-tinted glasses.  In my early 20's I was depressed and suicidal, in my mid-20's I was depressed and anxious, and in my late 20's, well, we lived in L.A.  ;)
I'm actually very glad to not be that young anymore.

I've been doing yoga and taking walks with the pup.  My weight is still a few pounds up (between 2 and 5), but I feel good, for the most part.  I have to remind myself that, 3 years ago, I would have sold my own mother to be at this weight.  (I told her that.  She's OK with it.)

Hubby has started rehearsal for his new show, and the in-laws are in Hawaii.  While it's nice to have the place to myself during the day, it also means no help with the kids.  I have to remember to take my solo walks, as well as those with pupper.  That's what truly helps me keep my sanity.  Or what's left of it, anyway.

I'm hoping to get back east at some point, to the Shakespeare company where I used to work.  I haven't seen a production there in over 20 years.  And since I'm not able to go abroad this year, I figure this will be the next best thing.  And it'd be great to see everyone.  I miss them terribly.  Summer is a difficult time, but maybe if I go early in June or in September, it'll be doable.

WG's IEP is coming up this week.  She'll be transitioning to the high school district (!!!!!!!!!!!!).  Hopefully they'll let her stay at her school.  I've been assured that chances are good they will.  LG seems to be a little bit calmer, but we're still going to have him assessed again.  Just to see what we can do for his anxiety.  Meanwhile, WG's meds are still working, although we've had to up her dose a bit.

I'm feeling a lot calmer these days.  The meds help, but also the tapping and just taking care of myself.  And having a sweet pup to cuddle when things get bad.

And I'm still considering becoming a Weight Watchers leader.  I like the idea.  It's mainly a question of child care. (As is so often the case.)

OK.  The sun has come out, so I'm going to take a walk.  Enjoy your Sunday!


Tuesday, February 14, 2017

What's That Big Yellow Orb In The Sky?

We've had some sunshine for the past 4 days, after some particularly heavy rain and wind.  So heavy that a major dam has developed a leak and 190,000 people had to be evacuated the other night.  It seems to be under control for the moment, but there's more rain predicted later in the week. In the meantime, everyone is enjoying the sun like we haven't seen it in years.  It's almost as if we've forgotten that we've been in the worst recorded drought in California history for nearly half a decade.

I went to my audition on Saturday, and it was SO MUCH FUN!   I did my monologue, then came back to read a couple of scenes from the play.  The director, as it turns out, also runs a Shakespeare festival and asked me to audition for "Hamlet" in the Fall.  Which was nice!  So, even if I don't get this show, there's a chance I'll get to do one later in the year.

Hope you had a nice Valentine's Day (if you celebrate it).  I'm gonna head off to bed.  Nighty-night!






Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Biting the Bullet, and Laughing

I can't stay up to watch "Saturday Night Live" when it airs, but thankfully we now have YouTube.
Back in the olden days, the court jester was the only person who could tell the truth without getting his head (literally) knocked off.  Usually.  And now we have shows like SNL and The Daily Show and Samantha Bee, among others.

If you haven't seen Melissa McCarthy as Sean Spicer, go watch.  Now.  It's OK, I'll wait...

...See, I don't think it matters where your political leanings lay (lie?), that's funny stuff!  Of course, you may disagree.  And that's your prerogative.
At least for the time being...

It's also a great stress reliever.  Laughter IS the best medicine, after all.


And, in other parts of Life, I have an audition this Saturday.  Nothing earth-shattering, but it's for a Shakespeare-inspired production at a small theater in Silicon Valley.  The theater is actually right next to the Pilates studio where I did most of my teacher training.  :)
I'm not expecting to get the job as I have a feeling they're looking mainly for 20-something actors.  But I haven't auditioned in nearly 13 years, and it'll be good to get, as they say, back in the saddle again.  And it's Shakespeare, so it's right up my alley.
Plus, as I write this, "Henry V" is on television.  Which I'm taking as a good sign.

So. That's all the news for now.  It's been raining like crazy , so I'm going to go dry off.

See ya!






Thursday, February 2, 2017

Ways To (Hopefully) Curb Anxiety

I went to the Women's March in San Francisco.  Apparently, by some estimates, there were 100,000 of us there.  It was heartening, to say the least.
It felt good to be taking action.  I'm now looking for places to volunteer, to counteract the horror show that is the current political climate.

Because if I don't, I might just explode.  My weight is up a few pounds, and my skin keeps breaking out.  It's like having Permanent Menstrual Syndrome. And I desperately need more sleep.

But there are other things I can do NOW to counteract the tension.  Tapping (EFT), sitting quietly/meditating, yoga, and walking.  And dance parties!  I always forget how good it feels just to turn on some good tunes and move around.  Especially when my kids join in: They don't care that I dance like an overly-caffeinated flamingo (lots of arm-flapping and kicking).

And, of course, having a nice warm puppy to snuggle with helps a lot.

I mustn't forget that this Sunday is the Superbowl.  Which, to me, means one thing: PUPPY BOWL ON ANIMAL PLANET!!!!!!!!!!
I mean, sure, the Patriots are playing, and my brother is working high-level security, but...well...I've just never been a football fan.  I'll watch the halftime show.  That totally counts, right?

I finally got my car fixed.  I'd been rear-ended back in October. The other driver was completely cool about it, and his insurance is covering all the repairs.  So far, at least.  ;)  I dropped the car off on Monday and picked it up this morning.  So I've been taking advantage of our fantastic public transpo, and also walking A LOT.  As I mentioned above, walking is a great stress-reducer for me.  And it's also the best way to keep my weight down.  Don't get me wrong, I love my free weights and Spin bike and Pilates and yoga and barre, but for weight management, walking just works for me.

I also went to a different Weight Watchers meeting this week.  Since I didn't have my car, I skipped Tuesday and went today, instead.  In order to keep my free Lifetime membership, I have to weigh in at my first meeting of the month.  So I stepped on the scale, even though I'm up 5 POUNDS since last week!  (I figure it's mostly a combination of hormones and stress).  And the leader was REALLY great about it.  She reminded me not to freak out over the number on the scale, and to take care of myself from the inside.

Today I got 20,000 + steps on my Fitbit.  Between the walk from Caltrain to the body shop (dodging incoming high school students all the way), walking the dog, and a nice walk after dinner, I got plenty of hoofing time.

And I AM feeling calmer.
Finally!

During my walk tonight I listened to the interview Peter Capaldi gave to the BBC on Monday night, in which he revealed that this coming season will be his last on "Doctor Who."  He started to get very emotional, and I have to say that I was right there with him.  He's brilliant, and I'm going to miss him on the show.  But It'll be exciting to see what he does next.

OK.  Bedtime.  Nighty-night!

Thursday, January 12, 2017

One advantage of living in someone else's house is that when something goes wrong, like, say, the water heater breaking, it's not entirely up to YOU to take care of it.  We went 3 days without hot water.  I don't know about you (and perhaps this is TMI, in which case I apologize), but if I go more than a day without bathing, things get pretty ripe.  So on the second night, in desperation, I texted my sister-in-law and begged her to let me come over and use her shower.  Happily, she agreed.
We're also able to bathe the kids again.  Thank goodness! Because if I though I was bad, not bathing 2 adolescents for half a week...shudder.

We've been getting a TON of rain here, finally.  Feast or famine; we've gone from drought to flooding.  It got so crazy the other day that I actually considered finding a private spot in the yard and taking my shower in the rain.  :)

As of Tuesday both kids are back in school.  WG had already been back for nearly a week, and has been so happy to be there!  I think she prefers it to hanging out with her dull parents all day, lol!

Today I've decided to take it a bit easy.  Me and the pup are hanging out, the space heater is on (the house is FREEZING!), I've got my homemade juice and my coffee, and I'm all set.  (BTW, I bought myself a milk frother for Christmas/Hanukkah. It was on sale at Starbucks, and I LOVE it!  I use soy milk, and it makes it all warm and foamy in 90 seconds. )
I'll take the dog for a walk, and do some detox yoga, then a (blessedly warm) shower before the kids get home.  Hopefully I'll be able to get to bed early.

I've decided that 2017 is going to be about self care.  Whatever that entails.  Maybe a nap, a tough workout, skipping a workout if I'm exhausted, eating healthy food, speaking my mind when I need to, and realizing that I DESERVE my yearly vacation AND my yoga classes.  As long as I can afford them, I will take advantage.

I have a feeling we're all going to need to take good care of ourselves.


Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Still Breathing

Heading into the 3rd week of school vacation (2 kids, 2 schools, 2 different vacation schedules).  And my mom has been here for a week and a half.  She's taking the red eye home tonight.  The weather isn't great, so I'm hoping for an easy flight. She's dealing with some serious stuff at home, so she's not looking forward to returning.  It's a pretty serious situation, which I'm hoping will soon be resolved.

I don't really make New Year's resolutions, but I've decided I need to focus on being a bit more bold. OK, a LOT more.

And in that spirit, I'm going to proclaim that I Deserve a Frickin' Medal.  ;)

As do my kids.  I vaguely remember being 13.  A 13 year-old female. I can't imagine being a 13 year-old autistic female.  My poor girl is on an emotional roller coaster like I've never seen.
And I remember, somewhat, being 15.  But I was never a 15 year-old boy, and certainly not a 15 year-old autistic boy.

Next week, I've decided, once both kids are back in school, I'm going to spend the mornings curled up in my warm bed with my warm puppy and catch up on sleep.

So, Happy New Year, and I'll check in soon.