It hit me the other day, like the proverbial brick, that I always seem to be waiting before I do things. Anything. Sign up for a yoga workshop, keep one of the kids home from school if they're sick, buy stuff at the grocery (or book) store, whatever. Large decisions or small, it seems I have to talk myself into them.
Like I'm waiting for permission.
And I know EXACTLY where it comes from.
I won't go into too many details (boring!), but it's left over from childhood, and into my early 20's. Even from my acting career, when I often relied too much on the director to tell me what to do. (The ironic part is that the most enjoyable performances, and when I even got my best reviews, were when I DIDN'T rely on anyone else and trusted my instincts.)
I know I've hit on this before, but the feeling of waiting for permission seems like a newer discovery. I know I've had the feeling of "waiting" before, but I was never exactly sure what, exactly, I was waiting for. Now I know.
Permission.
So here it is: I hereby grant permission to myself to do what is needed, what is necessary, and, so long as it causes no harm, what is desired.
I think that should about cover it.
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:) It's a tricky thing isn't it? I find it's easier for me to do what is needed for others than myself. I'll be taking a page from your book for me this week. :)
I love this so much: " I hereby grant permission to myself to do what is needed, what is necessary, and, so long as it causes no harm, what is desired." I want you to write me a permission slip too!! :)
Consider it done! :)
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