This morning, for breakfast, I ate a Morningstar Farms veggie bacon, egg & cheese biscuit.
And it was GOOD!!!!!!
You wouldn't necessarily think so. It came out of the freezer and went into the microwave. You'd think it'd be soggy or too crumbly or just not RIGHT somehow, but it was PERFECT!
I washed it down with a little bit of pear juice and some coffee.
And I enjoyed every bit of it! The sugar, the white flour, all of it.
Last night I made veggie burgers in whole-wheat sandwich rounds, with oven fries and veggies. We have lots of fruit in the house, and the kids love their salads. I think we're doing OK, food-wise. Not perfect, but perfection, I've learned, leads to a crash. Or a binge. Or, at the very least, to my banging my head repeatedly against the table and crying.
We also went into the city to take the kids for a walk around the hills of the Potrero for about an hour. So we all got some fresh air (it was a BEAUTIFUL night) and some exercise.
Today I might make some chicken soup. Good for the soul, y'know. And with my F-I-L going in for surgery tomorrow, I think we could all use a bit of comfort, even in the form of broth with fresh veggies.
I have to say that lately I've been feeling MUCH less stressed out. And lighter, literally! I guess that stress really was a heavy weight around my shoulders!
I AM going to miss living here, whenever we decide to move. I will miss it dearly: the lagoons, the bike trail, the bunnies, geese, ducks, pelicans (yes, we have PELICANS now!) and all the other water fowl who hang out here, and, of course, the pool! But we have some time left. And it's not as if we're moving into a one-bedroom apartment in a basement, lol! We'll be living in a big, gorgeous house with a yard! In a lovely town, with great walking/cycling trails and, oh, that's right, FREE BABYSITTING!!!!!!
Plus, the kids can use the pool at the gym where I work. It'll be crowded, yes, but that's OK.
Anyway, I can feel the shift. Away from all-consuming stress and worry about the future; away from using food as company, comfort, and avoidance; away from over-exercising (one hour, or LESS, a day is QUITE enough, thank you!); away from looking for that magic bullet to make my life perfect (it doesn't exist) and TOWARD patience, kindness, and finding what works for ME and for MY FAMILY.
Apparently, one of the things that works for me is WRITING IN CAPITAL LETTERS, FOLLOWED BY LOTS OF EXCLAMATION POINTS!!!!!!!
I'm gonna go now.
Have a good night!