Because I DON'T LISTEN!
Soon after writing my last post I threw my back out.
Which, I'm realizing, only happens when I'm stressed out.
So I did NOT teach my class, and did NOT get to go ice skating.
I stayed home and focused on standing up straight. And poked at the knot I've discovered on the right side of my lower back.
Hey, gotta entertain my self somehow!
It's feeling much better. By Saturday I was able to teach again and even do a bit of rollerblading with LG.
On Monday I went to a yoga class with my favorite teacher at a sweet little studio in Menlo Park. Starting the week with an Anusara class is PERFECT!!!!! I won't get to go next week, as I'm subbing another class, but this Monday morning class will be on my agenda whenever possible.
Went to my weight loss center yesterday & we talked about stress. She gave me a great tip: instead of focusing on and worrying about all the things I can't control, I can try just asking G-d & the Universe for the outcome that is best for all of us.
SO much easier, lol!!!!!!!!!
And it's kinda nice to expand that to include EVERYONE. As in, the entire population of earth. And whatever other planets may hold life. 'Cause ya never know.
Tonight we're meeting with a realtor who's going to try and get us a short sale rather than a foreclosure. Kinda last minute, but it would be better! And maybe even buy us a little extra time. This changing-school-districts-in-the-middle-of-the-year-as-opposed-to-over-the-summer-thing is so COMPLICATED!!!!!!!!! I feel like I'm stuck in an episode of "Real Housewives of San Mateo County." Except instead of wearing Prada and knocking over restaurant tables I'm just kvetching and crying and walking around in a general state of confusion.
And not sleeping.
WG graced us with another 3 AM concert today. This time it was on her doggie guitar instead of her keyboard.
I have to remember to hide them both once she falls asleep.
But then, she'll probably start wandering around. A least with the concerts she says in her bed.
In the meantime, I'll be sending most of the day cleaning and getting rid of more stuff. Which is hugely liberating.
Um, the getting rid of stuff part, not the cleaning.
I mean, let's face it: if housework were liberating we wouldn't have had the Feminist Movement! Am I right or am I right?
(Personally I think we need Feminism 2.0 right about now. But I'm not gonna get political today. Trying to keep calm, and politics is REALLY BAD for that! I'll think about kittens, instead.
Going back to the, er, back: It's also (yet) another reminder that exercising A LOT isn't always a great idea. Doing a HIIT or Tabata workout followed by strength training or Pilates isn't gonna get the job done. It's only gonna stress out me AND my joints.
And it's exhausting, to boot!
Finally, I'm working on changing my perspective in a lot of ways. Instead of focusing on how tired I am all the time, maybe giving some thought to how lucky and blessed I am. And to all the things I'm able to do. Instead of thinking of myself as old, fat and ugly, realizing I am, in fact, still young, just a bit chubby, and pretty darn cute!
Finally, realizing that I make things a whole lot harder than they need to be. If I can let go and trust, life will play out as it's meant to. I have lots of entities looking out for me and mine. Maybe I can trust them a bit more.
OK. Off to start cleaning.
Have a great day!