Sometimes I REALLY wonder what is up with my brain!
I've been grousing about the fact that I haven't gone on vacation in almost 1 1/2 years, right? So WHY did it not occur to me that a vacation doesn't necessarily mean going somewhere? I'm always talking about a staycation, but it never occurred to me to actually TAKE one. That taking a day off now and then and staying home is as much of a vacay as going away is. More, even, because it's MUCH less stressful; no finding a dog-and-house sitter, no vacation mail stop, no crazed house cleaning frenzy, and, best of all, no packing! (Last night we took the kids for a walk. It was SO fun, and the kids got to play at the playground for a bit. THAT'S what I'm talkin' about!)
Because it FINALLY penetrated my fog-covered brain that I haven't taken a day off from work in that almost-a-year-and-a-half. Not only that, I've added 4 MORE classes and have been subbing whenever possible. Plus all my duties as Mom.
And then I wonder why I'm feeling burned out!
Um, hello, brain? Anyone home?
This week, except for today's drama class, I am taking a break. It's kinda been forced on me, 'cause of my tooth. It's not the ideal situation, but, well, beggar, meet no-chooser.
At first I felt really guilty. But then came The Realization (see previous paragraph) and I thought "Screw THAT!"
Plus, I'm on those fabulous painkillers. It's hard to teach Pilates when you're lightheaded and loopy. (I won't be taking them this afternoon: I need all my faculties when dealing with my fuzzy bunnies AKA 6-11 year-olds. Plus, well, I'm driving.)
The lovely folks at my gyms will be teaching my classes for me, and I am eternally grateful.
I've also decided that, along with the Pilates, I need a job with a salary. And some benefits. Flexibility. I need to have a say in my work. I did a big ol' (very angry) post about this yesterday, but deleted it today. I didn't want it here. Some of you may have read it, and know what I'm talking about. But it was written in a fit of pique and, while I stand by it, I just don't want it staying up here. It was making me feel itchy.
So that's that. Still not sure when the root canal will be, but that's OK. (Painkillers!)
Have a WONDERFUL day! I fully intend to do just that!