Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Once Again, "DUH!!!!!"

Sometimes I REALLY wonder what is up with my brain!
I've been grousing about the fact that I haven't gone on vacation in almost 1 1/2 years, right?  So WHY did it not occur to me that a vacation doesn't necessarily mean going somewhere? I'm always talking about a staycation, but it never occurred to me to actually TAKE one.  That taking a day off now and then and staying home is as much of a vacay as going away is.  More, even, because it's MUCH less stressful; no finding a dog-and-house sitter, no vacation mail stop, no crazed house cleaning frenzy, and, best of all, no packing! (Last night we took the kids for a walk.  It was SO fun, and the kids got to play at the playground for a bit.  THAT'S what I'm talkin' about!)

Because it FINALLY penetrated my fog-covered brain that I haven't taken a day off from work in that almost-a-year-and-a-half.  Not only that, I've added 4 MORE classes and have been subbing whenever possible. Plus all my duties as Mom.
And then I wonder why I'm feeling burned out!

Um, hello, brain?  Anyone home?

This week, except for today's drama class, I am taking a break.  It's kinda been forced on me, 'cause of my tooth.  It's not the ideal situation, but, well, beggar, meet no-chooser.
At first I felt really guilty.  But then came The Realization (see previous paragraph) and I thought "Screw THAT!"
Plus, I'm on those fabulous painkillers.  It's hard to teach Pilates when you're lightheaded and loopy.  (I won't be taking them this afternoon: I need all my faculties when dealing with my fuzzy bunnies AKA 6-11 year-olds. Plus, well, I'm driving.)
The lovely folks at my gyms will be teaching my classes for me, and I am eternally grateful.

I've also decided that, along with the Pilates, I need a job with a salary.  And some benefits.  Flexibility.  I need  to have a say in my work.  I did a big ol' (very angry) post about this yesterday, but deleted it today.  I didn't want it here.  Some of you may have read it, and know what I'm talking about.  But it was written in a fit of pique and, while I stand by it, I just don't want it staying up here.  It was making me feel itchy.

So that's that.  Still not sure when the root canal will be, but that's OK.  (Painkillers!)

Have a WONDERFUL day!  I fully intend to do just that!

1 comment:

Geosomin said...

"Plus, I'm on those fabulous painkillers." That made me laugh :)

As one crazy busy person to another - take some time. Any time jsut for you. It's AMAZING what it does for you.
I'm taking all of tomorrow off...and I can't wait :)