Last week was...rough. All-around. Not so much in the way I'd figured. The kids've been great! But with everything that's been happening around the country and around the world, well.
Had another personally rough, emotional day. I think it was, in part, a delayed reaction to Robin Williams' suicide. The world is a much sadder place now. And with the events in Ferguson...
Sometimes it's all so overwhelming, isn't it?
But here we are, at the start of a new week. My mom is in town, as is a friend whom I haven't seen in 20 years. :)
And we are 6 days away from new "Who."
In 2 weeks and 2 days, both kids will be back in school.
Not that I'm counting the days or anything...
I adore them, of course. But It'll be nice to have those few hours to myself again during the weekdays.
Although it IS hard to believe that LG is going into 8th grade, while WG is going into 6th.
Where are my little toddlers?!?!?!?!
As of my last weigh-in, I'm 13 pounds down. I'm looking at between 8-13 more, and then we'll take stock.
Working on the meditation, and keeping up the tapping.
I just finished reading a book called "10% Happier" by Dan Harris (who's a correspondent and anchor for ABC news). It's about his experiences with meditation, after having had a panic attack on air, and I really enjoyed it. I found it inspiring and very helpful, as well as really funny. Definitely worth a read if you're interested in meditation.
Finally, trying to find the courage to go into the darkness that is at the root of everything. The cause of the anxiety, depression, and feelings of worthlessness that crop up now and again. And to dare to be unexceptional. To not worry that I'm not "important." Because I am to the people who matter.
To just be kind, loving, patient, and accepting of my own human-ness and frailty, and of everyone else's.
But I will say this: Remember that letter I wrote back in March? I kinda wish I knew for sure that the person I sent it to got it and read it. Because I think it's important to know when you've inspired someone as much as this person has inspired me. Just my opinion.
Anyway. I'll try to go on the assumption that they did. And hopefully it made them happy, even if only for a few minutes.
OK. Gotta go to bed.